Changes

When I was young, I wanted to grow up fast. I wanted to have it all...a job, a car, my own place, my own family. I was itching to skip everything else. Now that I've got it all...it seems that time flew by so fast. It's as if yesterday, it was only my 18th birthday. I used to fear being happy, because I could lose everything in an instant; now...I kind of fear getting old, losing people I love. Things change.

I had a job (wich I had to quit during my pregnancy), I have a husband (who I love so much), an adorable daughter (who I am so in love with), and we have a new place...wasn't that what I always wanted?

We're moving in 2 days. I have been crying like crazy, we haven't even moved yet. It's because I haven't been away from my family this way...permanently. The little girl in me will miss a lot of things like: breakfast with my dad, making kulit my mom, movies with dad, koreanovelas with my mom, my brothers, my room, the tree outside, the dogs...everything! I will miss the smell of my parents' room...the laughter during dinner...and many more.

There have been a lot of changes since I got married and had a baby. I am happy where I am. I have accepted the fact that I've grown up...but I am still my parents' baby no matter what.

I am sad, at the same time excited. We've already bought finishing touches for our places...maybe at times change is good. My husband has been so kind and understanding to let us stay at my parents' during weekends so I don't miss them so much.