I'm not really that old but I can feel that things are different. The things that matter to me are different. Things change. I used to be contented watching TV the whole day, reading a book, things like that. Now I get depressed over things that I know can happen, but not right when I want it to. And I've been honest with the things that are in my mind. A family, a home. I'm almost 26, I'm not 16 anymore, I've outgrown parties. And this has been bothering my head everyday. I didn't mean to blurt everything out, I admit I was under the influence of alcohol but I'm glad. I don't want to be drinking every time I want to say what's on my mind.
I respect what other people want, but I also have things that I need. And want and need....they are different. I can't go on feeling anxious everyday, nervous... because there is something left unfulfilled for me.