Challenge

I have decided that 2012 will be a year of challenging myself. See, I am not one of the bravest people on earth. I am a coward in so many things, though my "Cruella Deville" image doesnt't show it. Most things that I am afraid of are those that I couldn't accept. Mostly, they are about me. I am afraid to be judged...this is why if you were my friend...you'd notice that I rarely judge people.

I am scared to look stupid, afraid to look fat. Because I have worked so hard to be stick-thin...and to be at the top of my class and everything else.

But I guess, maturity comes with age. I am a mother now, to the most adorable baby girl. Yes, I am in a battle with my weight, but no matter if I lose it or not...I would'nt take it so hard as I used too. It's just 5 pounds anyway. What is that compared to the happy life I have now, right? So I am challenging myself to be more accepting of change.

I have never met anyone (no offense) who sees things the way I do...so I am the smartest in my own world. But my husband is also smart in his own right...so I am challenging myself to be more open with the opinions of others.

There are also a lot more I have to face, but I will take it one step at a time.

Also, I am up to this challenge I saw on the net lately:

Who else wants to join? :)

Short Cut

It all started with Emma Watson.

I have always been a fan of long hair. Very long hair. I had long hair since I was 19 years old. It has been my obsession to keep it growing. Not until a heartbreak mid-2007 that made me cut it into a bob early 2008. This lasted for a year because my hair grows fast...really fast. I have worn my hair long again ever since.

Then Emma Watson happened. She cut her hair so short, it appealed to me instantly. But I didn't have the balls to do that. And since I was in the late part of my pregnancy...there was no way I'd get that haircut because I'd look like a lollipop with hair.

Then I forgot about it for a while, due to mommy duties and because I was so busy being happy with my baby.

Then, at the start of 2012 I began seeing a lot of stars with short hair. Michelle Williams, Audrey Tautou, Emily Browning...and the girl from Alice in Wonderland...oh Mia Wasikowska. So, this is when I was itching for a haircut so bad that I couldn't sleep. Everyday I would browse through sites on and about girls with short hair. I asked my cousins if short hair would suit me...and most of them told me it's risky since my face is "cheeky". Also, an aunt of mine told me that my hair looked nice...long. So I told my husband...I'll have to cancel my haircut appointment.

We were at the mall a week ago and then he saw the huge ZARA display and told me that the girl's hair would look nice on me:

I loved the hair!!! So the itch came back...and has doubled it's intensity.

Then, Ginnifer Goodwin happened.

I happened to come across her when I browsed through sites...but it was when I was watching "Once Upon A Time", that I realized that she had a round face like mine. She was my hope. I immediately showed my husband and he told me to go get that haircut!

I went to the salon with him and our baby. I was dead scared. I showed the stylist the hairstyles that I brought with me. He was hesitant to cut my hair because he said it was long and nice. I told him that I had already thought about this, and it took me a month to make up my mind. I told him to cut it before I chicken out.

After two hours....I had my shortest hair ever (except as a baby). My husband couldn't stop smiling...and our daughter could't wait to jump into my arms. So I thought...maybe this hair suits me more..because they seem happy about it.

As for me, I love it. It's easy to style and manage...I get to save on shampoo and conditioner too. one of the sweetest things my husband told me to convince me was to get the haircut that I wanted because I have been obsessing about it, it would definately look good on me (for him atleast), and that because I had no time to fix my hair since I'm so busy with our daughter...it might make me feel better...and it did. It felt liberating. Having short hair, you would't be able to hide your face....so you'd develop more confidence...it worked for me.