Hi. I haven’t blogged for a few months now, due to work. Wonder why I am blogging right now? It is because I’ve resigned from my job. It wasn’t that I was discontented, or that the job was hard; there are just things in my life now that are more significant which I am about to share. A
A few months back, me and my cousin (Mel) went to Palawan with her boyfriend, Genson; and of course, Adam. Their flight home was in the morning, and ours was in the afternoon, so me and Adam had the day to ourselves. I was clueless on the events that were to transpire. He’s been asking me if we could go to a beach. We had nothing on schedule so it was alright. We packed our things and rode down a nearby beach; we brought lunch with us too. But because of our great stay, I was having the blues, still not wanting to go home. I didn’t want to go back to reality yet—that I was jobless and that some other things were just on my mind. We took pictures and we walked, we took our lunch….and suddenly I couldn’t hold my emotions in; it was just like when the tide comes in. I cried. He asked me why, and I did say that I was feeling stuck in my life, and that there is this big hole which just sucks me in. So he consoled me…the best he can and my cries turned into sobs. I excused myself to freshen up. When I was okay, he asked me to go walk with him. And we sat face to face, him facing the sea, and I facing him. I couldn’t remember much because it was surreal to me. I was still sobbing and he was still consoling me, he put his arms around me and he was telling me something I couldn’t understand….I only was able to comprehend it when I broke away from his arms and saw his lips moving, saying this exactly’ “Gusto mo ba maging wife ko?”.To which I responded with a blank stare, my mind froze. He repeated the question, just when I saw him holding a ring in front of me, which he said he has been holding for the longest time. There was no other answer for me, because back then, I knew he was the one. I was so shocked, that I almost choked with a single word, “YES”….and I couldn’t help but cry. This was one of the most memorable days of my life. All my worries and fears just went away.
I decided to tell my family around my birthday, but God has his way with things, and this is how my life mapped out. A few weeks before my day, God has blessed me with an advanced birthday gift (which is also an advanced Christmas present for Adam)…a baby. We are having a baby. I had mixed feelings at fist, happy because every child is a miracle from God, and that I know Adam is happy too; scared because I was afraid my parents wouldn’t be able to understand why when I was engaged would I have a child before a wedding? But life works in ways we don’t always get to control. So we decided to let the holidays pass before we told them.
I am very thankful that I have supportive brothers who helped in breaking the news to my parents. Who both were very understanding, who told Adam and I that what matters is that we are happy. So now, even though I deal with the headaches, fatigue and nausea almost 24 hours everyday…I am happy, knowing that while I am at home taking care of myself and our child (still in my tummy), Adam is working for us and that at the end of the day we’d be together sharing the happiness and the love between us.
This was last December, at 7 weeks 4 days. Now I’m at 14 weeks 2 days.
These days I am busy resting, and working on our wedding :) I can never be more blessed.