Twilight

I admit, I was a Twilight Saga fan....of the books...not the movie. I discovered these books (at that time only Twilight and New Moon were out) through my cousin Jessica on a one week stay at their house. She said she borrowed the book from our other cousin, and that it was an easy-read. It was summer and I was still out of work a year after college graduation, so without anything to do, I read the book. I immidiately got caught in the story, but because she was still reading it...I stopped. It was one of the most memorable summer break for me because all we did was eat, read, watch Cold Case and talk. Anyway, after my stay I couldn't resist buying the book, so I passed by National Bookstore and purchased the first two books...and fiished one book a day. My cousin and I couldn't wait for the third book. I am more of a Harry Potter fan so I reserve my books before they were out...but when Eclipse came out...we couldn't get a hold of any...everywhere around the city. I even called bookstores and asked...and there was only one copy left in Metro Manila...at National Bookstore Recto. I begged the lady to reserve the book for me withoud deposit Nd said I'd be there within an hour since I was coming from Fairview. Voila! I had my copy. My cousin even got her copy at SM BAGUIO! But my interest in the books slowly faded because Bella and Edward were becoming so sappy. And the movies were a disappointment to me.

I just watched one of the Twilight movies on TV and tried out looking like a vampire. I only did half of my face since I'm taking care of my baby. Sorry for my messy hair...and the look is incomplete without my contacts and false lashes, though I will be making a decent photo soon.

Good day.

No Yaya

No YaYa

It has been 2 weeks since my daughter's yaya went away. Nope, I did not fire her, and yes, I was very kind to her. She just decided to go away with a guy. I have to say that the first few days were difficult because she's been with us for two months. And for those two months I had time to do some things freely, though I was still a very hands-on mom inspite of her being there. I could research on the net, practice makeup, make photos and do post in Photoshop.

The first day that she was gone, everything was a mess. From my daughter's things to my appearance. I couldn't tell which I had to do first...wash the bottles, sterilize...fix her clothes, take a bath, eat...I was lost. But as days passed by I came to device my routines in tune with my baby's schedule. She usually wakes up around 7-8 AM, she drinks her milk and I eat my breakfast; I take her for a walk; we play for a while...then she naps for 30 mins to an hour while I do her bottles and shower; she wakes up and we play; then she eats then naps again for the same amount of time. I look for what I can eat for lunch and eat; she wakes up for her feeding then we play again. I leave her in my sight with her toys so I can prepare her bath; I give her a bath; she plays for a while then naps again...during this time her nap is long which lasts about 2-3 hours. This is when I either sleep or do some art, read, watch youtube, etc. Then I fix whatever I need to fix and do things I have to do. She wakes up again and eats...I take her for a walk; we play...she sleeps...We eat dinner, she wakes up to eat...and plays until she falls asleep. She sleeps at around 9-10 PM, which gives me free time until midnight. I am so lucky that she has been sleeping through the night since she was 2 months old, she doesn't even need a feed.

So that's it...my road to being a supermom and a superwife :) thanks yaya for going away.

In Transition

I want to go blonde. I do not care if it doesn't look nice, if it looks cheap, if it doesn't fit my face shape. I want to transition into the person I envision on a daily basis. Some people (most) would call me artsy, maybe they perceive me so just because I know how to draw, without regard to the fact that compared to more artists...I suck; I think I am more crazy than artsy...and I have been caging this craziness for so long. How I long for the day that I could just unleash the demented me who wants to live in a state of spontaneity and nirvana. I refuse to deem that it is age that withered this fire in me. I used to cut my hair when I get bored...buy clothes that people do not actually wear, make tons of photos and not care. I used to change myself frequently and not give a damn.

Yes, I loved being skinny. And now 4 months after giving birth...I still have around 8-6 pounds to lose...and it is so hard. I could not go on diets because I need the energy to care for our baby... There is minimal time for exercise because I am a full time mom. I was so ecxited, then, to breastfeed because they said it burns calories...unfortunately, my milk ran out in 3 weeks. Not that I'm feeling bad about it. I adore my little one and being there full time to care for her is my life. I just hoped I could be like those lucky moms who lose all the weight immidiately. Well I am not, and even though I am carrying a few extra pounds, I'd like to think that there is just more of me to love. But I am dedicating the first half of the year to lose all the weight, slowly but surely.

I want to go into metamorphosis. To become the person I want to be.

So here is a couple of things to do this 2012:

Go blonde
Find projects
Run
Learn to cook
Be the best mom ever (or second best after my mom)
Be a good daughter
Be the greatest wife
Develop my art skills
Make more photographs
Have my films developed
Lose weight
Be free.

Happy New Year :)