Date Night

I haven't been out for a long time. Everyone's so busy and I don't want to leave my daughter at home. But yesterday my husband took me out on a date. We were supposed to go to Greenhills...sadly, there were too many people and no more parking slots left. We decided to go to Mega Mall instead. Supposedly, we were out to watch a movie, but all there was was Breaking Dawn...which doesn't appeal to both of us. We ended up buying so much for our daughter. This is becoming a habit. We bought Bean a set of cow onsies with a bonnet and shoes...and another which was a lady bug! We bought her towels, bibs, comforters and pillowcases, a toy and diapers :)

Then we ate at Papa Johns', the pastas and pizzas are so good :) plus their cheesecake!!!! Then I asked my husband if I could go look at Forever 21 since I havent been there for a year now. I said I will only look :) but he bought me this :

We also got to jailbreak his iTouch :)

All in all...it was a great night for me. All thanks to Adam. ILY <3

Waiting for Christmas

I am really excited to spend Christmas with my daughter and husband :D As the days pass by, I feel the magic more. Mornings and evenings are a bit colder, and Christmas songs are being aired on the radio! I think of all the food and gatherings that we'd go to. Places we'll take our daughter....my mind is going crazy. I'm about to make my list of gifts to give to family and friends...and godchildren of course :D

For now I am collecting Christmas clothes for our dearest daughter lol. This Saturday, my husband will take me out...we'll see what I can find. Here's one of Bean's holiday outfits:

How many days more? :D :D :D

Dream Vacation

I am a city girl. I was never interested in going places...until I watched the first Tomb Raider movie. I day dreamed of going places, adventures and new culture...but there was always a lack of motivation...because I didn't want to travel alone. I always believed that it would be more interesting to go some place with somebody so you can share the memories together. Now that I found a travelmate (my husband of course...and daughter)...I am currently looking for a place like this:

I got this photo from National Geographic's Photo of the Day 2010. But I don' know where this is. Does anyone know?

Can't Wait For Christmas

It's near my favorite time of the year! Yes, Christmas. The time when I feel that everyday is a bit special. I know that it's hot in the country but I can feel a little chill in the air. Automatically, I am compelled to be a bit nicer. There's just magic in the air.

When we were kids, we used to live in a big house...with my grandparents...and my cousins. I remember, after dinner we hang out infront of the Christmas tree...put our socks up...listen to Christmas songs that our grandfather played. Everytime I think about it, I feel a bit sad...because everyone's all grown up...and I miss my grandfather. At the same time, I am happy to have those memories, because I know as children, we always got the best.

This year I am more excited because it will be our first Christmas with our baby girl :) I am looking forward to making new memories with her and my husband...and also, my family...the whole family.

<3 <3 <3

White House

My room is pink...since thirteen. I was studying Interior Design during college and I've always wanted to paint my room white. I never got the chance to. Now that we'll be having a new place...I asked my husband if I could paint the walls white...and we did. Now, I'll ask him if we could buy white sheets like this:

Image is from smallplacestyle.blogspot.com



What do you think?

Happy 3 Months :)

Today, my daughter is three months old. I can see the model in her already. Most days I dress her up and take pictures. She doesn't fuss or cry. She looks at the camera and smiles! She loves it!

She recently got lots of dresses. One from her Lola Lyn, two from Ninang AK, and five from my mom. Wow baby Bean...mommy and daddy don't need to spend so much on clothes anymore lol.

It has only been three months and already, I couldn't imagine my life without her. She's one great blessing to us. I don't mind getting pooped on or peed on :) and we're so lucky she has been sleeping through the night since she was 8 weeks old!

Here's one of our daughter's latest fashion finds:

It's a coat from my mom...my mom doesn't shop for me anymore though :( hehehe

Happy Three Mademoiselle Madeleine! Mommy loves you so much <3

Almost

Our condo is almost done. I want to make it a lovely and cozy home. I took some pictures now that it's almost finished. We just need to go shop for furniture and appliances. It's the first time I'm going away from my parents and brothers...I can do this. It's a new life with my husband and our baby girl. We'll still go visit my parents Fridays to Sundays :D

This is the kitchen....where I will start to learn how to cook.

This is our daughter's room :D Ballerina Pink.

Our rooms are beside each other...

Where our numerous books will be....

Our windows :)

Our baby's light :D so cute!

Our cabinets...I hope my clothes will fit in with Adam's :P

Appreciate Youself a Bit More

Last year, Adam joined a local photography club and asked me to tag along. We were in it to learn and be more exposed to photography. We made friends, and did learn at the start. But eventually, I was feeling a bit down. And my reason is a bit 'girly' to others...or juvenile to most. I did not feel that my work was being appreciated. Also, I felt sad that the group forum wasn't as active about photography like before. Most things I saw there made no sense to me. No offense to the people there. I just wanted an environment where I can learn...not somewhere I see one liners which aren't even photography related. So I stopped checking the forum out. My husband was, and still is very patient with these things.

Then I felt insecure about the things I created because I did not feel appreciated...but I realized that if I believe in myself I would eventually gain the confidence I need to get back on track.

I haven't really given up hope, so I still try to post from time to time. Sadly, the group has been saturated...I don't even know the new members since the number grew so big. I was also pregnant, hence I did not have any photo to contribute...I hibernated. Now, I get to make photos again...and I am still hoping to find somewhere I can belong.

Saturday Afternoon

I haven't been taking pictures nor post processing for a long time since I had my daughter. My husband has been itching to shoot for months now. So we decided to set a shoot with our friend Gian. The model is Adam's friend. I was looking for some inspiration on the internet and did come across a few. I know my picture is composed in a weird way...but I am not going to saythat it is for art's sake. It's just the way l see things. And it's beautiful to me.

This is Seya Capri (not her real name).

6 To Go

I couldn't sleep. I don't know why. Usually I easily fall into deep slumber these days. I guess I have been pondering on a lot of things lately; constantly assesing and reassesing how I feel about this and that. Oh well, nevermind about that. I know for a fact that women are wired to function in a more complicated manner than men.

Yesterday, though, was a happy day for me. It was our 7th month of being married. Most people do not even celebrate these things or even take time to remember. I always do remember (maybe because most of us back then tend to take note of monthsaries). My husband told me he'd pick me up after his work so we could go buy the things we needed for the condo. So I got dressed and waited. I met him at our gate and entered the car...and he surprised me with flowers :)

I found it sweet...but everyday, he makes sure that I am always happy...which is one thing I love about him. He considers my feelings about everything...a lucky thing for most women.

Anyway, another thing that surprised me is this:

My mom keeps telling me I'm fat. Okay, I gave birth. I gained a total of 26 lbs during my pregnancy, and lost 13 right after birth. And lost another 5lbs 8 weeks post partum. Now at 10 weeks post, I lost another 2 pounds. I only have 6 more pounds to lose...still she keeps telling me I'm fat. I don't know if it's to motivate me but it's not helping. It only makes me paranoid and have episodes wherein I sulk and my husband would insist that I am not fat. Which led to an emergency fitting of clothes. Oh, maybe that's why I couldn't sleep...hehehe. I took out my old jeans...and anything else without garters...to my surprise...they fit! THEY ACTUALLY FIT! Two weeks ago, they wouldn't even close. That kind of cheered me up. Lesson is: Do not believe my mom when it comes to this. I will believe my husband.

I also find it impossible to believe my mom, because I have been eating a majority of lettuce for a month now. I can't go anorexic all over again because now, I have two people to take care of. And I also think that I am too old for that kind of stupidity.

In other news, I am looking forward to Starbucks' peppermint coffee wich is only available during Christmas season...just saying.

Little Miss Sunshine

I come to love my daughter more each day, and the happiness I feel as a mother grows. With every new things she learns, I feel so proud. My baby girl loves to talk. We have a lot of talktime and I love that she smiles and coos in response to whatever I tell her. She can now laugh and giggle, this makes my heart melt. She only wakes up for one feeding at night...now we get to sleep more. I've never grown up so fast.

I do not get to do all the things I want to...I just find he time to squeeze them in. But it doesn't bother me at all. I've never loved anyone as much (save for my husband).

Time for Myself

I only get time for myself when my daughter is asleep. Even surfing the net and watching TV needs scheduling. It's okay, she gives me the greatest joy anyway. Just one smile brightens up my day. There are a lot of things I worry about since I am an overthinker, but my baby easily calms me down and makes me realize what a good person I am.

Anyway, after our early morning walk...I ate with my brother since it's his sembreak...I told him we (my husband, baby and I) will be moving to our new place on January. I know they'll miss Bean...so I told him we would be spending weekends with them. Moving to a new home...our own home is quite exciting. Adam is used to living by himself, so this is the first time I will get to manage a household. I'm up gor the challenge...I am already a mom anyway. I will just miss my parents and brothers so much because I wouldn't get to bother them anytime I want. I bother my parents all the time...it's just a habbit. I'll get to miss our dogs, my room, everything. But we don't live that far...so we get to spend weekends together still.

Yesterday, we already chose the paint and finishes for the cabinets. It's been a long time since I got to design anything...and now it's going to be our own place so I want it to be perfect.

Household Help

I am the kind of person who becomes easily attached with our household help. Most especially when their personality suits mine. One of our household help left today; because by December she is due to give birth to a baby girl. She had been working for us for three years, and I have no complaints about her. Actually, 'bilib ako sakanya'. She is always positive about everything, even if there are problems in her life. She is always laughing...and her laugh is contagious. Even my parents have no complaints about her.

She, and our other help (my yaya when I was a kid), know almost everything about me...because for years I have hung out with them, mostly when I am just at home or out of work.

Well, there's nothing much we could do to make her stay. She has her own life anyway. I wish her luck and a good life. Maybe one day we get to see or hear from each other again.

In a way, I know I'll miss her.

He Always Wants To See Me Happy

He told me he feels happiest when he sees my face light up with joy.
No matter how many times I tried to hide from him, that I desired to own an iPad...he knew....and gave me an early Christmas present.

I feel happy when I know he is happy too :)

Autumn

A wind has blown the rain away and blown the sky away and all the leaves away, and the trees stand. I think, I too, have known autumn too long.

e. e. cummings

Simple Joys

Bean and her activity gym.

October 3, 2011

Me and my husband are having a difficult time making Bean sleep in her crib. She likes sleeping on my chest, on her rocking seat, and between us. Most times we become frustrated when she wakes up after a few minutes after putting her down. During the wee hours of the night we go back and forth from the bed to her crib....we keep on carrying her then putting her down...again and again. Actually I haven't had a full night of sleep since giving birth (a good way to shed the weight)...I do not have the time to go to the salon to get a haircut or even have my nails groomed. I have had no time to read my books nor watch my DVDs.

But you know what? It's all worth it. My daughter is so addicted to me as I am to her. I instantly melt whenever she looks into my eyes. Whenever I move around her eyes follow me. When she cries and I hold her...I can see that it gives her so much comfort. Those things give me such joy that I forget my worries.

This morning, our little one woke up irritated; she cries from time to time even if she's been changed and fed. I made her sleep by lunch time. I found the time to read and watch because surprisingly, she was able to sleep in her crib for 2 hours!!!!

I also had time to work out, since I already got the go signal. After that I took a shower and gave my baby a bath too. I made her play with the first toy that we bought her. As you can see, she likes it very much :)

Our Treasure

October 2, 2011

Take Me Away

‎"But I'm so sorry, it's not like me
It's maturity that I'm lacking
So don't, don't let me go
Just let me know
That I can slip and fall
And you won't let me go
Just let me know that growing up goes slow"

Somebody Loved

"Now my feet turn the corner back home
Sun turns the evening to rose
Stars turning high up above
You turn me into somebody loved"


October 1, 2011

Took this photo while me and my husband joined a photowalk.

My Baby Doll

Honestly, I favored to have a baby boy when I was younger. Simply because I did not have an interest in girly stuff, and boys are simply satisfied with playing....hence, I do not have to buy a baby boy too much clothes and accessories. When I found out that I was pregnant... I was so excited to find out the gender of our baby. During this time i did not have any gender preference because I was happy about having a baby--boy or girl, didn't matter to me just as long as he/she would be healthy.

At 20 weeks we were told that we were having a baby girl :) I never knew how fun it would be! Me and Adam would always look at baby girl clothes and shop; one or two garments almost every time we went out.

I must have done something right, something good, something great...to have been blessed with a beautiful baby girl. I am such a proud mother. But what makes me happy each day is that she is healthy...and grows smarter each day.

I feel like I have a live barbie doll! Most days I pick out her clothes, dress her up, and take her pictures.

Today, I went out to pick up a parcel from the post office...and since I was out...I couldn't resist the urge to buy my darling daughter a new dress (and hair piece)!

I love you baby Bean :)